A Short Love Story

The small grains of sand, gushing in the whirlwind, stung my uncovered face as I hurried across the strait roofless street of the bazaar, illuminated by a faint glimpse of a lunar entity and twinkling shimmering stars in the pitch-obscurity of the dim matter, to a more urbane avenue. Thousands of penniless poverty-stricken people had joined the mirth of the city and the pompous gaiety of the more fortunate. People of different socioeconomic backgrounds intermingled like several canals of water into one homogeneous horde of mindless molecules rushing towards the sea, the exit. The waxing crescent represented an upcoming auspicious day, the Eid, but for the indigent, it was the present which mattered more than an unseen felicity.

Among the herd, I kept moving; going where the tide took me. For me, the ambiance and buoyancy of humanity were more reverent than what an apparently spiritualist day itself was. I was here for a reason for every soul that dwells inside this occult cycle of life has its raison d’etre. My income was minuscule but the possessions never define one’s sentiments and the extent of love itself. There were street-hawkers on the either side of the lane, some of which had gold and silver plated adornments and others which had bangles and accessories of the commoners. I had five hundred rupees inside the pocket, in my shalwar hemmed at the inner side, which I had procured by working overtime in a close-by eatery as a server. I belonged to a peasant family which had been working as farmers in rice paddy-fields for several generations. I caught a glimpse of shiny laced glass bangles sets which were finely arranged in four rows with five of such sets in each. There was also a white cardboard box with a transparent plastic on the posterior side containing an engraved gold-plated set with emerald-green synthetic jewels.

All that and she had demanded nothing from me. My heart was drenched in the aura of gloominess and desperation. Her father was one of the most well-respected and wealthy citizens of the city. She had paid a hefty tag of spurning her ties with her family. A young lady who was raised in the tip-top society, was sent to costly schools and was cleaned by conventions, turned down everything for a man who couldn’t even fulfill her wishes. I bought the jewelry and bangles along with henna with optimistic facial expressions trying to obscure the sadness that had engulfed my soul by then. I lurched among the excited crowd. Their happiness was consuming me. I stopped a rickshaw to take me to the nearest station which was one hour away from my house. One hour of the walk had me when I left my family but now It was more or less an indispensable part of my lifestyle.

We had acknowledged love over everything and we had never regretted the decision. Life is stale and agonizing amid the daily drudges of my occupation yet toward the day’s end, I feel blessed to be able to pay for her college and to return to her, my significant other. The time seemed to fly away as I was engrossed in the contemplation of our dark past. There I was in front of an old rustic wooden door attached to a not-so-dandy cemented house. It was not the best but it contented our fundamental requirements, nevertheless. I knew that she was in the kitchen because I could smell the enthralling aroma of spicy lentils cooked by a young lady who was spooned all her life. I knocked at the door. There was a clattering. And then I heard a soft yet resolute voice that resonated with my heartbeat and pierced my already throbbing heart. I burst into tears. All of my accrued emotions flooded my eyes and then splashed my face. The door opened and there she was, my everything.

A dazzling young lady, with an olive complexion, was gazing at me with rather curious dark brown eyes below arch shaped eyebrows. She had an oval face with eyes set equally apart; a prominent cheek bone; an angular jaw line; a rounded chin; a round nose below which rose-hued lips were present. Her long black hair was braided meticulously.

He dove towards her and shut the entryway behind him. His reflexes were sudden and unfathomable. This was the moment for which each of them had waited for so long an entire day. He put the bag containing the bangles set, henna and a few adornments on the couch quickly without letting her realize as he shoved himself through the entry-way. This was to be a surprise for her. He put his arms around the small of her back with her head pushed against his chest. There was a silence.

“Are you crying?” she asked moving her eyes towards him. She had noticed his wet cheeks.

“No, no. It’s nothing,” he said with mournful eyes.

“You know I hate it when someone lies to me, did something wrong happen?” She looked at him with a distressed expression.

He remained silent for some time but then blurted out.

“It’s just that……..I mean that you are amazing and deserve so much better but I can’t……” he said with his eyes darting at his feet.

He had finally said it. This sentiment lay with him through his long stretches of the day and contemplative nights as an unbidden guest.

“How dare you say that?! We have sacrificed our everything to live with each other. Had it been something else that I wanted I wouldn’t have put up with you for such a time. I love you! And that’s just what I want back in return.”

He looked at her with relief. This liberated him from an incipient anxiety that he was keeping her unhappy. They had sought love and love they had acquired.For her, he was incompletely immaculate and for him, she was defectively perfect.

The sobbing gradually diminished and the young couple kept staring each other. They closed their eyes and gradually pulled closer to each other until their lips touched. A chill went down the spine when their lips met. They were intoxicated with adrenaline. Their heart started pounding harder and harder until they felt it throbbing near their throat. She felt his lips quiver because of nervousness. She caressed his stubble. He felt as if he was corrupting her. Am I ready? Is this a sin? Will anybody know? What will they think? What will my mom say? What if we get caught? The fear kept rising inside each of them until it was completely eradicated. Instincts took over. There was no shame and no holding back. They started breathing heavily and kissing more passionately. He lifted her up holding her thighs and thrust her onto the bed. His cold hands met her warm smooth skin. She ran her bare hands beneath the hem of his shirt tracing to his back. This sent shivers down his spine. He felt goosebumps as he was enticed by the process. She couldn’t believe that she was doing this. She felt embarrassed and intimidated. Her face blushed as the blood gushed in her body but as the foreplay progressed she started feeling comfortable. He unbuttoned her shirt and she followed the suit. It was a normal deed; not a taboo she had been indoctrinated to believe in. This was an action far more reverent than the cultural norms and social constraints themselves.

The time stood still for both of them as they delved into a world unravished by the cruelties and pain of the imperfect world perfected by the evolution. This denied the existence of negativity and reality. He was looking at her like she was the most precious thing he’d ever possessed and was glad that there was no wall between them. She was apt that she, at last, had him all to herself and that her penances proved to be fruitful. It was neither lust nor sexual interest which held them close rather it was something more significant inside imperceptible to the human eye which fortified them. It was the reverence and love that had brooded between the soul-couples which animated their relationship. They had gone intensive predicaments and hardships yet stayed solid and undaunted, and this was the wellspring of their adoration. Unlike lust which is mortal, love itself is immortal. Love vanquishes everything.

 

Self Control and Habit loop!

Wikipedia defines self control as;

Self-control, an aspect of inhibitory control, is the ability to regulate one’s emotions, thoughts, and behavior in the face of temptations and impulses. As an executive function, self-control is a cognitive process that is necessary for regulating one’s behavior in order to achieve specific goals

BACKGROUND KNOWLEDGE

As indicated by the not-so-prevalent philosophical hypothesis of determinism the greater part of our choices and orientations and also collaborations have a causative connection with some past occasion, experience, involvement, thought or presentation and, as a result, the most of the what we call us is only an interlaced system of arbitrary ecological impacts and hereditary premise (a man’s conduct and destiny is dictated by both of these variables; read more here). Okay—- I get it. Let’s make it easy. When you either drink that big glass of coke or skip it for green salad it probably isn’t you making that decision! Same goes for all of your brand choices and priorities. Its your genes and the congregation of environmental influences or nurture, like the blog you coincidentally read that compelled you to make a particular decision. It can be that random friend you sat with the first day in your school and became acquainted with, you never controlled that persons life or interaction with yourself and somehow you bonded with him/her and this induced several changes due to a mere random chance. Now let’s head towards the brass tacks people.

NON-CONSCIOUS FUNCTIONING

95% of our brain’s activity fall beyond our conscious thinking and cognition while only 5% of it is actually under under deliberate control. This process is called habituation –when you become used to repeating things, in order to decrease the energy consumption (an evolutionary trait to compensate for this large neural lump) of the brain without evoking the higher centers of the brain, as numerous studies have shown. As you are perusing this paragraph you are instantly recognizing the words like pictures and hear them boisterous inside your brain as opposed to understanding them sequentially. Like, re–ding makes itself out as reading because for the most of the time we are “recognizing” rather than “reading”. This is all to say that we are, for most of the times, beyond ourselves.

RELATION WITH SELF CONTROL

Okay, I’ve wanted to, somehow, get to this point since I started this whatever-it-is. Self control is basically using those higher conscious areas of your brain to somehow mould your unconscious habits and interactions into a different order. For addicts it can be a Herculean task- (Eh, stop smoking’ would you? Nah, just one last time. One won’t hurt right?) and as we as a whole are dependent on our old ways and propensities in a way transforming them is hard and controlling our activities is much harder.  In some cases we may even overlook that we are dieting and keep glued to the ancient path.

Become RESOLUTE. You need to commit yourself that YOU ARE GOING TO CHANGE YOURSELF. Sometimes you may forget or give in, but try again as only repetitive affirmations will alter your habit loop.

Marcus Aurelius, a roman emperor who ruled Rome from 161-180 A.D. says in his book meditation (One of my most favorite book ever!);

“At dawn, when you have trouble getting out of bed, tell yourself: ‘I have to go to work—as a human being. What do I have to complain of, if I’m going to do what I was born for—the things I was brought into the world to do? Or is this what I was created for? To huddle under the blankets and stay warm?

‘—But it’s nicer here…’

So you were born to feel ‘nice’? Instead of doings things and experiencing them? Don’t you see the plants, the birds, the ants and spiders and bees going about their individual tasks, putting the world in order, as best they can? And you’re not willing to do your job as a human being? Why aren’t you running to do what your nature demands?

‘—But we have to sleep sometime…’

Agreed. But nature set a limit on that—as it did on eating and drinking. And you’re over the limit. You’ve had more than enough of that. But not of working. There you’re still below your quota. You don’t love yourself enough. Or you’d love your nature too, and what it demands of you. People who love what they do wear themselves down doing it, they even forget to wash or eat.

Do you have less respect for your own nature than the engraver does for engraving, the dancer for dance, the miser for money or the social climber for status? When they’re really possessed by what they do, they’d rather stop eating and sleeping than give up practicing their arts.”

This passage highlights the significance of sticking to one’s manifesto or life purpose that for my case might be studying and becoming a doctor. Also, it is tentatively upheld truth that more your condition changes better are your odds to adjust and change your propensities. For me, “not studying” is a problem of paramount importance. It is due to initial procrastination which fortunately can be remedied by getting started as soon as I get home. After that, I can FIX my break timing so that I do not wander off. Now this point deserves some special attention, to actually implement this strategy I will have to fight my inertia or slackness (Old habits) daily to actually progress. Research has illuminated that our willpower is like a muscle and is a limited resource. Then waking up in the morning at a specified time is as hard as resisting a slice of freshly baked pizza but again its hard only initially. So by determinism and commitment we can engrave these habits into us.

FIGHTING THE URGE TO NOT CHANGE

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The air conditioner is on. The blanket is around you. The pillow is soft. Eyelids are several metric tonne heavy.  NOW, you might remember that you have committed yourself to change and you might want to screw this idea and stick with your comfort-zone, which is undoubtedly natural. This will be intense, yet guarantee me that you will move! Here and there you may give in, go berserk when you end up plainly mindful and feel sorry for! It’s not that bad if you try harder next time, even though you failed, because constant affirmations will help thee. Good fortunes! You’ve read or perused 1010 words till now, yowser! Do share your thoughts 🙂

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My MDCAT Journey

STUDYING EFFICIENTLY

This is a summary of a Thomas.J. Frank video by a YouTuber and it goes like;

  • 1- study for chunks of 25 to 30 min after that take a break.

  • 2- reward yourself after finishing your entire day.

  • 3- Study concepts firstly then study facts.

  • 4- Once you learn the concepts test yourself and learn actively

  • 5- Highlight the important terms

  • 6- Our brain is good at recognizing but it’s not good at recollecting so you can practice this by testing yourself and learn actively

  • 7- Flush out your notes to solidify the concepts in your mind if you feeling fuzzy with something you can ask your friend who takes a good notes or ask your professor in office hours

  • 8- Summarize what you have learned by teaching it :

  • (8-a)- It’s useful for recalling the information

  • (8-b)- To ensure that you understand the subject completely

  • 9- To be good at memorizing is to use mnemonics :

  • 1- Acronyms : VIBGYOR (red orange yellow green blue indigo violet)

  • 2- Coined sayings : as you singing a poem about something you need to memorize

  • 3- Image association : to create a story in your head with what you have studied

INCORPORATION OF HABITS

My day will be systematized as the following;

  • SLEEPING HABITS

I should sleep at 12 am sharp and wake up at 7 am sharp. This way my much needed 7 hours sleep and hence REM sleep for memory consolidation will be achieved. Moreover I’ll be having one power nap right after my academy to further facilitate memory.

  • POM COUNT

Here consistency is the key and spaced repetition favors my view. I’ll do 18 poms daily on a consistent basis, starting from the time I finish taking a nap. Make sure you don’t let your schedule pace out.

  • REVISION

Reading the notes twice and completing the important stuff will be followed by keenly reading and memorizing other stuff from my text book which has been assigned.

  • PREPARATION 

To prepare yourself before the lecture, first read the U.H.S. syllabus, which is an added advantage due to its question type nature, and then read all the stuff that you need to know about the related topics. Highlight the stuff that you are not sure about.

  • FLASH CARD TIMING

After lecture, read the notes and then read the book. Solve the assigned exercises and questions. After this, when you create flashcards related to the important numerical values, M.C.Q.s and important things, remember that it must not take much time you must already have decided that stuff to put in there. After it you should start revising your ankicards. This should be repeated in a cycle for every subject you do.

  • RELAXATION (High Density Fun)

Now lets do a nifty maths. We have 24 hours out of which 7 hours will go to sleeping. 5 hours for the academy and 1.5 hour for the travel. It makes 13.5 hours. Now add 8 hours to it and you get 21.5 hours. Now you have like 2.5 hours for breakfast, shower, snacks, and shit (Yes.literally!). You can squeeze in an hour of H.D.F. which might be playing a video game or watching an episode of a T.V. series. But it totally depends on you, if you’re fine with it. I, personally, can’t run such stuff simultaneously, I’d either study hard or not at all so I’ll skip this part. My reward can be mango milkshake or something of the like.

  • PRIORITIZATION

Now you might fall into trouble here. Listen, you come back from academy and get started on Biology. You do its entire session for like 5 poms where one pom should go for both the creation and practice of flashcards. It gives you 2 hours of study for each subject followed by one pom for English. Start doing 10 words each day and make flashcards out of them and practice them within this pom. And listen carefully, buddy, you can always increase or decrease time depending upon the work load of the particular subject.

SAMPLE EXAMPLE WHERE SHIT IS AMPLE

  • Wake up at 7 and sit on the fucking table and chair by 7:30 and study till 10:00. You get 5 poms done! It might be physics or English or whatever you have planned.
  • Start academy at 12- 5 pm and you’ll be home by 5:30 . Now you might start studying by 6:00 and must be done by 10:30 ideally or by 11:00. Now you have an entire hour to fuck with T.V. series or anime or a game. THAT’S YOUR REWARD FOR 16 POMS OF WORK. 

UPDATES (I will keep updating this article)


June 8- 2017


As of now, I am struggling with studying and managing time as well as focus but this must not be taken as the failure of my methodology but as a slackness on my part. But remember that, I will get one of the top 10 positions of M.D.C.A.T. or secure admission is A.K.U. following the same strategy.  I have blocked Facebook on my laptop using host files and that is only the first step. I have a lot of pending stuff and very little time so I’ll enlist the changes I am bringing.

  1. Try to sit isolated from all of my friends and the circle as to avoid chit chats and basic guy talks.
  2. Try to review ankicards regularly during the van at least on my way to academy.
  3. Keep my desk clean and simple because a tidy desk is intimidating.

Now, I am officially a part of THE MEDICAL COLLEGE CHALLENGE or TMCC and I’ll try my best for this. No more time wasting and bad management. Let’s start.

Mind Dump!

Okay Let’s be honest here, everyone has some crazy ideas that could either change the market or the way we interact the world. My mind has been bogged down by the creed of this like too but at a much crucial state i.e. near my exams. Yeah, Not the perfect time to think of creating an YouTube channel, eh? I guess it started with motivation videos and ultimately Forbes 400 and this unquenchable passion for money which isn’t bad, i suppose. And if my mind serves me right, I think last year in the middle of my exams I was obsessed not with success but gaming! PlayStation and new Tomb Raider: Definitive Edition. This time its business and ideas such as creating the first largest private network of hospitals in Pakistan. It is much closer to my profession than thinking of creating a business statistics website, and yeah I’ve been there too (Couple of days ago). Whether these ideas are a result of my procrastination and delaying my exam preparation or the actual obsession with entrepreneurship I know one thing. It is really infectious for my future career and education. I mean look, my parents have been “investing money” on me as well as their time. And I have been studying all of my life and If I can’t make it out through these annuals I guess Its like inviting an eternal liability and financial dependence on my parents.

One thing that I should realize is that I’ll retain this “creative” brain of mine and ideas until at least 35 and that will be the age when I’ll be able to actually do something rather than just fiddle around on YouTube and daydreaming about being a millionaire . And who knows how successful will I really become but simplifying it; Right now, At this moment I’d rather invest myself and my abilities in education rather than ideas that are virtually worthless unless executed properly and that execution requires experience, knowledge, maturity and dedication which I really lack at the moment. So, while not provoking those ideas let them be where they are and focus on something that is concrete and tested. Education. You can be entrepreneur whenever you like. But education is something you can’t acquire.

So I need to start that lunacy. Right now, I have all what it needs to succeed to be honest. Like 1 week is all one needs to focus on important things and get oneself ready for exams. If I am smart enough to think and execute world changing ideas whether it by through my grit or creativity or EQ or IQ; One thing that really matters is how well can I handle myself in last few days to glory. Wish me Good Luck! Thanks for reading it 🙂

Self Reflection

I have been wasting myself a lot these days. Its not even these days, it goes back to the time when i was giving my 11th Grade exams. I was caught in a vicious cycle of depression. Guilt used to fill my heart when i procrastinated, which led to depression further on and this cycle continued. Now, Ill try to address this issue so that it may never happen again, or that i am prepared to overcome it when it reappears later on. So first step is;

DESOLATE THE FEELING OF GUILT

Okay, I agree that I was wrong and have been wrong. I have done pretty lame things in the past. I have wasted my potential time and again. I have deceived myself as well as the God and my abilities. I could have done so much better at so many things but whats done is done. I could have scored more in 11th Grade but whats done is done. I could have wasted less time in 11th Grade but whats done is done. And thinking about my failures in the past is not gonna help in any way. It will only lead me down into a more crippled state; more tensed state; more disappointments. The only way open to me is to look forward and forget the pasts. I got a bad 88% in part one. But that’s just a small 20% of Medical aggregate.

LOOK FORWARD TO FUTURE 

Now, I must keep looking to a brighter future. I have some dreams that i want to fulfill no matter what and one of them is to enter into a prestigious medical institute. My past choices have been wrong and I agree with it but that must not alter my present, which is gonna delineate my path to more disappointments. I have MCAT as well as second year to look forward to. And I must believe that I will score high in these exams and that I can do it. Every day is a new chance to rise and shine.

START STUDYING FROM NOW

Yes. Depression transgresses further into my study habits and do so badly. So lets try to stop depression by studying rather than procrastination which is gonna affect me badly. So to eliminate depression and my chances of failure, I must continue my actions. These actions must be such that I try to fill my day with productivity which will increase the positivity and happiness. I must remember at all times, the more I study the closer I am to medical university. So studying must be my primary motivation and profession. Forget the PAST. Just believe that you CAN DO IT and MUST DO IT.

EMBRACE INSANITY

Yes, healthy insanity and delirious feeling are gonna help me here. I should study like mad psychopaths from now on. Strong emotional attachment to studying will make me feel homely when studying books and eradicate negative vibes associated with it. ITS JUST ONE YEAR NOW, SECOND YEAR+MCAT. EMBRACE LUNACY. I CAN DO IT. 

My Impossible List

Life is all about getting and achieving whatever you want. Winning at things you thought were impossible. Most of us have not actually achieved something remarkable or impossible, because we never dreamt that we could do it.

We are who we believe we are.We all have some ambitions and things we want to Achieve.  Things we can only dream about. Things we think only happen in movies, tv shows and media. Something a commoner like us can’t achieve. It’s even more frustrating that you won’t even get this stuff your entire life. When I was young, I dreamt a lot for stuff I wished to have. Wished to achieve. But I had a fear dwelling inside of me. A fear that still exists and keeps on growing as I become “older” and experienced.

 

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It’s within each one of us to dream, strive and achieve what was meant to be ours. It isn’t the question whether we can fly, it’s are we willing to fly?

You don’t want to end up in your deathbed and looking back at the things you couldn’t do. Life is meant to live as you only live once in sextillions years. You will only have this moment in sextillion years. You were dead and will be dead. You got these few decades in sextillion years. How are you going to live them? Crying over what you couldn’t accomplish but could have. Well, you still can. Make an impossible list. It should have all the things you wish to have. Things that you might think are impossible, might not be impossible. LET’S CHALLENGE OURSELVES TO GLORY.

LIFE GOALS

I WILL BECOME A DOCTOR

  • I WILL Complete FSC (Intermediate or Grade 11&12 in Pakistan) with 1000+ Marks (Out of 1100)
  • I WILL Make it to top 5 in second year
  • I WILL Complete MCAT with 1000+ Marks (out of 1100)
  • I WILL Make it to King Edward Medical College or Allama Iqbal Medical College and Complete 5 years of M.B.B.S. (Equivalent to M.D.)without failing.
  • Optionals;
  • I WILL Complete USMLE steps.
  • I WILL Complete my specialization and residency in U.S.
  • I WILL Check my first patient and address to his/her problems.
  • I WILL complete my first surgery
  • I WILL Make a difference in someone’s life
  • I WILL serve the poor free of cost in Pakistan.

I WILL WRITE A BOOK

  • I WILL Write a novel under 500 pages and get it published
  • I WILL Write a nonfiction book
  • I WILL Write a novella series
  • I WILL Become a New York bestselling Author
  • I WILL Compose and publish a Poem book

I WILL BECOME A SINGER 

  • I WILL Learn to play guitar
  • I WILL Learn to DJ
  • I WILL Become a part of a band
  • I WILL Release my first single in Urdu
  • I WILL Release an Album
  • Optional;
  • I WILL become a famous singer
  • I WILL do my first concert
  • I WILL sign my first autograph

I WILL GIVE A TEDX TALK 

I WILL WORK AT MCDONALDS OR SUBWAY OR OTHER FRANCHISE 

  • I WILL Make a sandwitch
  • I WILL Get close to other employees.
  • I WILL Also gain 5 kg weight eating from there

I WILL BABYSIT FOR A DAY

I WILL HELP SOMEONE COMPLETE THEIR EDUCATION 

  • I WILL help them complete their School
  • I WILL Help them complete College
  • I WILL Help them complete university
  • I WILL Attend their wedding day

I WILL FORM A HOSPITAL 

  • I WILL Hire your first employee
  • I WILL Construct the best hospital
  • I WILL Hire best doctor panel
  • I WILL Hire a lot of nurses
  • I WILL Arrange Doctors and nurses workshops
  • I WILL Hire a finance manager for the hospital
  • I WILL equip it with latest technology
  • I WILL Have special rates for poor
  • I WILL Do my first free surgery
  • I WILL Complete 100 free surgeries every year

I WILL TAKE CARE OF MY PARENTS 

  • I WILL Buy my mother a diamond ring
  • I WILL Buy my father a car
  • I WILL Hire a driver for them
  • I WILL Gift them something every month
  • I WILL Take them for dinner once a month
  • I WILL Drive Lahore with my mother and do shopping. I pay.

I WILL MEET ALL OF MY TEACHERS

  • I WILL Tell them that I am successful because of them.
  • I WILL Thank teacher Huma from KG as well.
  • I WILL Invite each one of them(those I remember ) to a ceremony.

I WILL MARRY SOMEONE 

  • I WILL have my first date (I don’t care if it’s an arranged blind date)
  • I WILL only marry someone intellectual, rational and the one who loves philosophy.

THINGS I WILL OWN (Buy myself ) 

  • I WILL buy a MacBook
  • I WILL make a gaming rig
  • I WILL buy a PS4 or PS4.5 or PS5
  • I WILL buy a latest iPhone
  • I WILL make a gaming room
  • I WILL buy Apple Watch
  • I WILL buy an iPad
  • I WILL buy a Music surround system
  • I WILL buy Microsoft Hololense or Oculus Rift and play VR 4K Games.
  • I WILL own a German Shephard
  • I WILL own a Persian Cat
  • I WILL own a RADO watch
  • I WILL own a Toyota Land Cruiser
  • I WILL own a pair of Nike runners
  • I WILL own a Nike tracksuit.
  • I WILL own beats earphones

FUN THINGS I WILL DO

  • I WILL be certified scuba diver and I will scuba dive/Snorkel at Great Barrier Reef
  • I WILL Bungee jump
  • I WILL sky Dive
  • I WILL travel in a helicopter
  • I WILL Para-glide (DONE 😀!!!)
  • I WILL swim in each of the oceans (Well. Thai Gulf done!!!)
  • I WILL have a road trip
  • I WILL get lost once
  • I WILL sleep without roof under the skies
  • I WILL visit Antarctica
  • I WILL have a Cruise Dinner (DONE KABOOM😀)
  • I WILL drink wine. Because why not?
  • I WILL eat every cheese type.
  • I WILL READ 100+ Books
  • I WILL touch tigers
  • I WILL have a Bonfire. And will camp for in a jungle
  • I WILL take a bath in a natural waterfall in wilderness.
  • I WILL take a bath in natural hot geyser in Japan.
  • I WILL have a WILD party. Drugs and chill
  • I WILL attend a concert
  • I WILL enter and drink at a Bar. (I drank water from a bar If that counts 😅)
  • I WILL hangout with some American Friends
  • I WILL make some American friends
  • I WILL crash out after being drunk
  • I WILL get stoned
  • I WILL have a sleepover.
  • I WILL win all you can eat contest.
  • I WILL eat at an expensive hotel
  • I WILL cry all night with a friend
  • I WILL have a girlfriend
  • I WILL learn to SURF
  • I WILL learn to do KNIFE throwing
  • I WILL learn Archery.
  • I WILL learn MARTIAL ARTS.
  • I WILL Learn sword fighting. Or Sparring.
  • I WILL drive a helicopter
  • I WILL see northern lights
  • I WILL experience the thrill of river rafting boat.
  • I will keep adding in stuff 😉

PLACES I WANT TO TRAVEL TO

  • I WILL travel To JAPAN.
  • And participate in a Cosplay.
  • Eat Ramen.
  • Eat sushi. . (SUSHI DONE!!!!)
  • I WILL travel to Thailand and meet people there. Enjoy their cuisine and ambience. See different sites in Bangkok.Their temples and infamous islands. (DONE 🌿🍙🍹!!!!!)
  • I WILL travel to US and become a part of this American Side of me.
  • I will acquire a double citizenship of US.
  • I will travel to to Maldives before it sinks. And watch it’s sapphire sea and sandy small beaches.
  • i will travel to Venice.
  • I will travel to Europe and see all the important Landmarks especially, Eifel tower.
  • I will live in some European village for a week.
  • I will travel to Italy and experience it’s night life.
  • i will travel to Antartica on an expedition
  • I will sail across the sea on a long journey.
  • I will travel to Africa and it’s rainforests as well as Savanna.
  • I will travel to Australia and see its rich biodiversity.
  • I will travel to Northern Areas of Pakistan. ExperiencE Pakistan at its finest. and HUNT.
  • Visit AANSU JHEEL.

HEALTH GOALS

  • I WILL lose 5KG weight.
  • I will eat healthy, I.e. No oil or sugar or white rice or white bread for a WEEK.
  • I will have my morning walk ritual before sun sets out completely for a WEEK.
  • I will run for 10 minutes without stopping. ( 1:04 as for now 🏃 )
  • I will start building my body. Six abs? Impossible? I think not.
  • I will start meditation for 3 minutes for a week.

This post is meant to be edited over the course of time. As I Complete these things which I thought were impossible once. And adding new ideas and things that inspire me. All of this will make me a better man. Wish me Good luck 😬😬😁

Life. I am making you worth it.

How many of us wake up everyday with no passion? Working on instincts and prone to mood swings. Wasting the only life we have. The only moment we have been Left with. Sure sure.you must have stuff to do. The stuff you dream to Acheive one day. But have you ever asked yourself that how can you hope to Acheive your dreams if you are putting nothing to advance your silly desires. Without any action or plan to put your work to good use, you are wasting your time. Just spilling your blood over meaningless games, tv shows, Having nothing to accomplish. You may want to be someone better than you are. How can you make that happen? ONLY ACTION CAN MAKE THAT HAPPEN. Some of you may dream to earn money. But NONE of the rich have ever said that they wanted money. They worked because they LOVED it. That’s where there passion lies and that thing made made them filthy rich.

Paul and I, we never thought that we would make much money out of the thing. We just loved writing software.

Bill Gates

So before you think of finding ways to earn money, think about the thing you love the most. Something you want to become no matter what. ( No. Not “millionaire” Jerk) and that’s how it will all start. And Money is important but it isn’t everything. Too much money blinds us. Too less? Kills us. We must be willing to persue our dreams and passion rather than money (And have no Birds in hand at all). So from today, I am going to take cold showers. Well, I don’t have cold water in summers, but I will compensate by running hard. This concept has been taken from Joel Runyon. We must be willing to push ourselves out of our comfort zone to really live our lives. We have no other purpose or destiny to fulfill rather than fulfilling our dreams and ambitions. Push yourself harder and harder until there is nothing of you left. Couch potatoes like me, don’t actually live, we are just consumers of various companies. Loyal people, degrading ourselves and our purposes. Remember that you must live before you die. And I am going to make that happen. After this article I am going to write my impossible list.

A way to success

Sat there a man so desperate,

depressed, stressed,insane,defeated,

Pondered and pondered he ,over his fate,

Darkness in his mind had prevailed,

Was trapped in a cycle of procrastination- no escape gate,

A thought came by – through his mind it sailed,

One, two, three eat what’s on your plate,

Conquer the fear Let it be nailed, 

Dont let it stop you and enslave you-it will proliferate,

Procrastination is a thief of time-Let your mind be bailed,

It only leads up to a guilty mind and vicious state, 

Stop instantly when you in the sea see mermaid, 

You’ll be enticed and killed- Remember, Its just a bait,

Never ever shall you forget why were you made?

Acheive your ambitions before it is too late, 

Invest in your future-Present just will fade, 

Never ever shall you limit your life’s freight,

Just do it. Right now. Enough you’ve been upon played,

Stop victim mentality, Go take what you did create.

 

Okay. So that’s kinda my first serious poem. Apllause, applause Apllause ( Lyrics from Lady Gagas song). Well. I want to go to K.E. Or AIMC now. K.E. Is a new entry. But I know that I can make it. I just don’t know how to study study and study. I have been through that stage but not anymore. I have kinda stopped using Facebook. But still, I do get distracted. I think from now onwards I will keep on studying whatever the circumstances are. I do will take breaks though, which I now think that they are necessary only if you don’t end up in a procrastination loop. I think I should just stop thinking and start studying. Yes. It’s easy though, all you have to do is sit in an air conditioned room. Study and dream. Awesome couple though that is they reinvigorate each other. It’s 2 already and I think I should become more of a morning person as after midnight Procrastination ( From sleeping ) becomes strong. And during day one can study more I guess. Whatever. At least I started studying. Yes, yes I found that intrinsic motivation that is driving me to study. That is MEDICAL COLLEGE. Man, is it my dream? Well not exactly but YES. I have already begun and it will end up even greater . I promise. LOL.

 

 

What is Evolution? Simple Explanation.

What do you think when you hear this world evolution? Darwin? Creationism? Science? Ecology? Paleontology? Comparative anatomy?. Simply, it can be defined as;

Evolution is a process in which a population gradually alters its physiology and different aspects as to adapt to its ecosystem over the course of time.

BRIEF HISTORY OF DISCOVERY OF EVOLUTION

Its something gradual, continuous and painstakingly slow. This idea was first proposed by Greeks such as Aristotle that the living beings change with time. But the modern evolution theory begins with Lamarck (Who gave the hypothesis of inheritance of Acquired characteristics) who said that the living organism acquire certain traits during their lifetime which then is genetically transferred to its offspring. Like if a Blacksmith hammers iron everyday he will have strong arm muscles and this trait would be inherited by its offspring. Although it is completely wrong. But this gave way to something greater. And that is Darwin.

ROLE OF DARWIN

I wont bother you with facts about his life at general. So lets get down to brass tacks. He while visiting South America on a ship called “Beagle” observed different life forms there. He collected different flora and Fauna there. Studied a bit. And soon he discovered islands called Galapagos Islands where he found similar animals albeit with some different features. He discovered that as once these islands were in close proximity of South America similar organisms were distributed here. But as it went away and away the islands became kind of secluded and isolated. That’s when they began to EVOLVE . And over a long stretch of time they were different from their counterparts in South Africa which had been evolving quite differently according to their respective environment. That was a BREAKOUT, a scientific triumph. What later happened and the books he wrote are out of scope of this article. So lets talk about what the Evolution means after all.

SOURCES OF EVOLUTION

Evolution is based on the concept of Natural Selection. Lets explain it with a simple example. We have a adorable mouse couple one .They are black and white. They have 3 babies. One is black , other is brown (Mutation occurred here) and the third is white . The white is more susceptible to predation and will be killed earlier. Followed by Black. And brown will be last due to its better camouflage. Similarly if we have a large group of mice with these colors. White population will diminish faster. Followed by Black. As resources are limited these organism will also compete. Over time this brown mouse will become more common. That’s how it works. Different traits will be introduced and those individuals with desirable characters will dominate. I mentioned Natural selection and Mutation here. These along with genetic drift and gene flow are the primary sources of evolution. Genetic drift can be explained as effects of environmental factors on a population that  occur randomly. Lets progress with the previous example. The mouse pair had a mutant baby which was brown. If things had went well,it would have survived and reproduced brown would probably had become more popular. But what if a cat finds that mouse and gobbles it up ( Eh heh like Tom and Jerry). That’d be called genetic drift. Something random that has effect on a population. To explain gene flow. Lets say that the black mouse from a certain population meets another population of mice where black trait is absent. It reproduces with a mouse from that group and this way introduces a new dominant trait to that group of mice. Its gene flow or rather flow of genes.

 Note: These traits are represented by alleles of chromosomes. So mutation means                               mutation is some gene.

I would now recommend you to read this page and resume this article, its almost over.

http://bugs.bio.usyd.edu.au/learning/resources/CAL/Microconcepts/Evolution/theory.html

Don’t worry its precise. And then after Gradual evolution these eukaryotes became multicellular entities over billion years. Tracing over lineage first came fishes, then amphibians, then reptiles and finally mammals. And us. I would like to end this article with this following video.

Disconnect from the “Unnecessary Distractions”

Sometimes in life. We are enticed by different things. And we unconsciously make them a part of us. It can be anything a person, a hobby, an occupation, a job, a website, a social media platform and so on. In that predicament, we kind of become dependent on this stuff and it becomes a part of us. A part of our personality. Something that defines us. Slowly and Gradually, we start getting bored from either the consistency of lifestyle or by over-expectation. This boredom depends upon that entity that has lost its value to you now but it was enticing initially ( It impelled you to add that thing in your life).Usually it happens when you encounter something or someone and associate high expectations for it, whether it be a source of happiness or rather just companionship, for man is thirsty for compassion and friendship. For example, you meet a particular person. You direly want him/her as your friend.You are in love with his/her humor, personality,way of conversation or whatever it be. But as time flies, you start to feel, that this particular person rather than empowering you has starting to leech your life out.You used to seek him for he seemed a fun guy but now you are tired of him.The same face. Or it may be like, you find something about that person that you disdain. But you’ve already been depending on him. You think, that colleague has become an integral part of you, even though what he gives you, is boredom,Less contentment with your own life, Hostile comments. Depressing opinions, He stops you from growing. He is not what you asked for.Remember ,as i said earlier ,it can be anything, not necessarily a person. You can become addicted to a particular forum. Or a habit that makes you so dependent that you cant function without it.You start feeling insecure.Guilty habits they may be. Your lifestyle maybe. It may even lead to great stress and anxiety, hopelessness. You continue to depend on that thing as a source of your happiness. But it doesn’t turn out well, right? Its just like squeezing shampoo out of a container even after its finished. Addiction is horrendous thing. Annihilating symptoms.You keep sticking to that in a hope that the outcome will be as great as it was for the first time.

Do good because you are that good. Its in your nature. Don’t expect virtuosity to be treated with virtuosity. Do good, with least hope of getting something back in return.

I WANT A CHANGE. WE ALL DO. We all become, “Sick of the same old love.”

Everyone goes through that. No matter what form of distraction they encounter. I call it distraction due to the sole reason that it not only pull your leg down and also put obstacles in your way to success. Put you in an agonizing pain. Something that puts you in cycle of depression and misery.  Yeah, the same state that causes drug addiction, alcohol addiction and similar addictions. Filled with Regret, stress, addiction, pleasure, more regret and cycle goes on and on.

We cant limit everything, but we can limit our interactions and pull out the weed which destroys the beauty of our garden. Try this tip. Its quite helpful. Early stages will be common tolerance effects. If its a person, you will feel the urge to talk to him, ask him for help. It varies. I will close this article with one quote.

This is YOUR LIFE. Not mine. Not your parents. Not your gal’s. YOU ARE THE CAPTAIN and sole in-charge of the ship. Instead of handing over the control to instincts. TAKE THE BULL BY ITS HORNS. YOU CAN DO THIS.

Good luck homies.